A Whole New World

We had a fun morning yesterday. Brooklyn, Kayla, my Mom & I played games together for awhile, but then Brookie was tired and just wanted to lay on the couch. Her favorite movie this week is Monsters Inc. She wants to watch it over and over. We got a call from the nurse in the afternoon saying that Brooklyn's hemoglobin was down a lot from Monday so we needed to go in at 8:00 this morning to have it rechecked and possibly get blood. I was so bummed about it because I just want her to be healthy all the time. They have told us that the chemo will make her numbers go up and down, but I get so sad when they are down. I hate that the Leukemia is hurting her and I hate that the chemo is so hard on her too. Mike and I actually got to play games at our friend's house last night and it was a great break for us to just laugh and not think about medications and blood counts and doctors appointments. Brookie and I left at 7:00 this morning to go to the infusion room to get her blood checked again. She ended up needing to get blood as well as her chemo, so we were there most of the day. She has had a fine reaction to it, but is still really tired. We didn't hear anything about the heart monitor results today, so hopefully we will on Monday. The steroids are still in full effect as is evident every 10 minutes when she says "Me wanna eat someting".  Being there today was crazy for me b/c I never really thought much about cancer before. I definitely felt sad for someone who was diagnosed, but I was always so busy with our "ordinary" life that I had no understanding of what people with cancer actually have to go through. Seeing all the other kids and moms there today made me realize what a big deal it really is. I know that I will never be the same. I so desperately want Brooklyn to be healed and all her treatments to be over, but I know that even when we are past this time, I will never forget that other kids are going through the same process.  I hope that once we are at that point, our family will be able to help other families cope through it all. We are still continually amazed at the wonderful support and love that we have received from everyone. Thank you so much.