Another Big Day

So, tomorrow is another surgery for Brooklyn. She is having another spinal tap and bone marrow biopsy to see how well the chemo has killed off the Leukemia over the last month. The hardest part will be the fact that she can't eat again. Her surgery isn't until 1:00, which means that she can't have any food after 5:00am and nothing to drink after 9:00am. The last time she had to wait all day to eat, it was so hard for her, and that was before she really got into the whole steroid eating thing. So, I am thinking that it will not be a fun morning tomorrow. She may show the people in the waiting room exactly what a 'roid rage really looks like. :)  I am sure we will be up in a few hours for a snack, but if she happens to sleep, I think I will try to wake her up at some point so she can fill her belly up a little before the long wait. I am also nervous because the bone marrow biopsy is painful. The last time she had it she didn't want to walk for 2 days and it hurt every time we changed her diaper because the incision site is right on her diaper line. Our nurse said it shouldn't be as painful this time, so we are hoping that it won't be. It is funny to see the way that God protects and provides for us even in situations we aren't expecting it. We were discussing our plans for tomorrow, and who would pick up the kids from school and when we would leave for the hospital, and Kayla asked if she would be at school while we were at the hospital. I told her she would still be at school, but then I thought - how weird is it that she just asks that question like it is no big deal. But do I want her to know it is a big deal? Do I want her to know that cancer and chemo and surgery and infections are all a huge deal and are the center of what we are thinking about right now? Or am I happy that she doesn't think of it as anything more than a place that we have to go sometimes? Somewhere where she likes to get food from the cafeteria and play in the playroom on the children's floor. It was such a simple question, but it made me reflect on how God protects us from things that we do not need to worry about. Kayla doesn't need to worry about everything that Brooklyn is going through, she just needs to be a kid. And, if we are going to say that, then we don't need to worry about what Brooklyn is going through either because we are God's children and He doesn't want us to worry about things that we can't control. He has a plan and He will take care of our precious little girl. Please pray for her doctors tomorrow and how her heart reacts during the surgery and for her appetite to be small until she can eat. :)