Sunday, January 30, 2011
It will be otay
Brooklyn has had a good day again today, walking all around, riding in the wagon, wanting to play in the play room, but for some reason I am having a harder day. I know that we are going to be able to do this and that God will help us through, but I have been sad all afternoon. I think I am just sad to think that she will have to go through all of this and that our lives will change so much. I know the idea is that we should keep things as "normal" as possible, but we are going to have to be so much more cautious of germs & infections so that she doesn't get sick. We won't be able to do the same things because her immune system is so much weaker because of the Leukemia. It is all okay because we know that getting her through this and keeping her healthy is the most important thing, it will just be an adjustment for awhile. I was sad in our room today and Brooklyn said, "What's wrong Mommy?" and I said, "I just don't want you to be sick." She hugged me and said, "It will be otay. Don't be sad." I know God is helping us through these times by making her so strong. She is getting another blood transfusion again, but I'm sure we will be up running around the halls soon like we were last night. I never knew walking laps around a hospital floor could make me so happy. :)
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Oh Kristin. Your feelings are so valid and so honest. NOBODY wants to have their child in the hospital or to be sick with so much as a cold let alone all that little Brooklyn is experiencing. I am amazed at how strong you've been. Let your emotions out my dear. The all the tears fall and cleanse you. Keeping them in will only make you feel worse. It's ok to be sad. It's ok to be angry. It's even ok to laugh when you feel like crying or screaming or... God knows your feelings regardless of if you say them or not. Let Him help you through this time so you can help Brooklyn in the moments where she needs you most. Sending you oodles of hugs and prayers and love.
ReplyDeleteKristin, I can't even begin to imagine the emotional rollercoster you have been on this past week. Frizzy's post sums up my thoughts perfectly. You are amazing and Brooklyn is an inspiration to all. Lots of prayers from the Condon Family.
ReplyDeleteHugs, Christie
Frizzy said it perfectly! Hugs to you my friend! "Fear not, for I am with BROOKLYN/KRISTIN; be not dismayed, for I am HER/YOUR God; I will strengthen BROOKLYN/KRISTIN, I will help BROOKLYN/ KRISTIN, I will uphold BROOKLYN/KRISTIN with my righteous right hand." Isaiah 41:10
ReplyDeleteFrank Family,
ReplyDeleteYou are an amazing family! We are constantly holding you in our hearts and prayers. Our love surrounds you and we are standing by your side. Stay strong for you are backed by armies of angels.
Max and Anna’s prayers for Brooklyn tonight
The love of God surrounds you,
The light of God enfolds you,
The power of God protects you
The presence of God watches over you,
Wherever you are God is.
Love,
Molly, Max, & Anna
I'm so sorry to hear that you had a tough day. I understand how you feel. Sometimes as moms, we are so busy caring and advocating for our kids that those feelings sneak up on us. It's ok to grieve, even healthy to admit your feelings and it doesn't surprise God one bit. I'm here for you if you ever want to talk. Until then I will be lifting you up in prayer.
ReplyDelete"The Lord is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit."
~Psalm 34:18
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ReplyDeleteMy dear American Lillasyster!!!
ReplyDeleteHere is lots of hughs and kisses with strenght from Sweden. I´m thinking about all of you and I´m sad to hear what is happening to Brooklyn but at the same time I love reading this blog. I will follow you and you are in my heart, thoughts and in my prayers. Brooklyn seems like she is an lovely girl and she will help you throu this with her happy smile!!!
Lots of love,
Anna-Karin
Thinking of you guys... sending all my love. Hope little miss Brooklyn can go home soon! I know you are super busy but give me a call if you catch a moment Kristin = )
ReplyDelete~Amy
my thoughts and prayers are with you. What a brave little girl. and mom and dad too! I went thru leukemia with my husband in 1988. he had a transplant and did really well.It is amazing the leaps and bounds the medical world has done since 1988. UCD is a great place to be your in good hands. Pray.rest. be mad if you need to. It's O.K. god will help you. my thoughts and prayers are with you all.
ReplyDeleteGreat to see that Brooklyn had another good day. Nice to see that the hospital has so much for the children to do to at least for a while, can take them away from their discomfort and illness and to have some fun.
ReplyDeleteI agree with Frizzy as well. Something about how God created a mother's heart, so relational, caring, nurturing, loving, for her children, her family. So it is not surprising to see the feelings you are feeling. God Bless your mother's heart Kristin. I am encouraged though, that you have a supportive husband and family and most of all, Jesus to help you through this.
But again, to see how Brooklyn tried to comfort you, only speaks to how much love you have shown and demonstrated to her. "Children learn what they live" and whatever you and your husband are doing with your children, GREAT JOB in loving them! Even in her very young age, that loving, caring, nurturing side shows. What a sweetie! And out of the mouth of babes comes, "Everything will be otay...", What a PRECIOUS little girl with a very SPECIAL MOMMY!!!